Coming To Terms

Let me say all the things that are weighing heavy on my mind,

Tonight I just can't seem to keep them inside,

I've been stuck with the same reel playing in my head,
Caught up in our last conversation,
That left my heart cold as a stone,

I've been laying awake at night,

Going over all the things I said,

The promises I made in my youth,

The hopes and fears I shared,

With someone who told me they'd always be there,

Now they're nowhere in sight,

I wrestle with myself,

Hating the pain I've caused for someone so special to me,
And wondering how I could still have so much love,
For someone who used the past as weaponry,

I suppose that's the real reason for my tears,

What weighs so heavy on my heart is you,

For eight years you were my confidant,

You were a safe place for me to be me,

You were five hour long phone calls,

You were the inspiration of future plans,

You were a hope for the pain to end,

And now- I can't even call you my friend.

By: Alyssa