Moving On

I don't want to think about you,
And the pain that you've caused,
I just want to forget your name,
And that I once refused to see your flaws,

I could drown myself in bottles of wine,
Or fill my lungs with smoke,
I could try everything again and again,
Until I inevitably feel like a joke,

Instead I think I will write about you,
To try to get these thoughts clear of my mind,
Maybe it will work today,
Though it hasn't any other time,

I won't give up on trying to leave you behind,
The past is where you belong,
With all the other heartache,
And everything else that's gone wrong,

I don't want to think about you,
Not for one second more,
I just want to be free of this mess,
I just want to shut and lock this door,

But I suppose I can't just forget you,
No matter how hard I try,
I can't pretend you never existed,
Because you were the reason I used to cry,

I don't want to think about you,
Don't try to be cute and call this is a bluff,
I'm doing whatever I can,
Though part of me feels that it won't be enough.


By: Alyssa